26 Maret 2020

Hanya bercanda. Iya kan?
Kukira kau hanya bercanda
Bermain-main dengan kata manis
Tapi sebenarnya kau tak serius

Adakah terbesit rasa jengkel ketika kau tahu aku bodoh?
Adakah terbesit rasa muak ketika aku selalu mengeluh?
Adakah terbesit rasa tak suka ketika aku tak pandai menanggapi dengan baik obrolanmu?
Aku sudah jujur berkali-kali pada diriku sendiri; aku sudah jatuh
Semudah itu

Lalu, apa yang kau lakukan sekarang?
Mempermainkan rasa sialan ini dengan semena-mena?

Sudah ku bilang, aku tak mau memulai
Lalu sekarang, aku jadi bodoh

Sudah ku bilang, kan, rasa sialan ini buat aku bodoh?

Logika sudah bilang berhenti, sungguh

Ah, bangsat!
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00:00 (Zero O'clock) - BTS (English)

This song is presented to you who have a heavy day. Whatever you face today, don't forget that you'll have the next day. After "zero o'clock", everything is reset and new day is ready to start again. Always hope and pray that you'll have the new strength to pass the new day..

Matthew 6 : 34 (NLT)
So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today.

You know those days
Those days where you're sad for no reason
Those days where your body is heavy
And it looks like everyone else except you is busy and fierce
My feet won't set off, though it seems like I'm already too late
I'm hateful of the world

Here and there are click-clacking speed bumps
My heart grows crumpled and my words lessen
Why the hell? I ran so hard
Oh, why to me

Come home and lie in bed
Thinking if it was my fault?
Dizzy night, looking at the clock
Soon it will be midnight

Will something be different?
It won't be something like that
But this day will be over
When the minute and second hands overlap
The world holds its breath for a little while
Zero o'clock

And you gonna be happy
Like that snow that just settle down
Let's breathe, like the first time
And you gonna be happy
Turn this all around
When everything is new, zero o'clock

The beat slips away little by little
I can't put on the easy face
I keep forgetting familiar lyrics
There's nothing going my way
Yes, it's all in the past
Even talking to myself, it's not easy
Is it my fault? Is it my wrong?
Only my echo comes back with no answer

Put my hands together to pray
Hoping that tomorrow I'll laugh more, for me
It'll be better, for me
When this song ends
My new song begins
Hoping that I'll be a little happier

And you gonna be happy
I hold my breath for a very brief moment
And give myself a pat today, as well
And you gonna be happy
Turn this all around
When everything is new, zero o'clock

Produce by Pdogg
Written by Pdogg, RM, Jessie Lauryn Foutz, Antonina Armato
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Jatuh.

Sudah ku bilang kan, aku mudah?
Bahkan sekarang, rasanya, aku sudah jatuh.

Menyangkal? Sering.
Aku sudah pernah jatuh beberapa kali
Dan selalu ku sangkal berkali-kali

Aku takut.
Tentu saja.

Hanya kali ini, aku mencoba untuk tidak menyangkal
Tapi masih dengan pikiran negatif yang terus berkeliaran

Dan jika memang ternyata dia tidak
Dan jika memang ternyata dia berhenti
Dan jika memang akhirnya hanya aku yang jatuh
Jujur, aku tak mau
Tapi, bukankah aku harus siap?
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